A Wake Up Call: Don't Give Up

Hello everyone. How are you all doing? Good I hope. It's 11:46 p.m. and today is Monday 08/29/10. This past week, I have been dealing with some problems spiritually, mentally and emotionally. Friday, 08/26/10 my spirit was down because I felt like I was tired of not having a job, not having a car, not having my license, tired of being overweight and most of all, tired of feeling lonely and not having a husband. I was also tired of people making false promises to me. I thought about all the people who had promised me that they would do things for me and never came through. So I wrote a status on FB because I felt like giving up. As soon as I allowed depression to kick in that's when I started to develop this terrible headache. I felt such pain that I felt like I was about to die. I said a prayer and asked God to clean up my life and take me home. Sincerely in my heart that night I wanted to see Jesus but God didn't answer that prayer. That night I really had a desire to leave the earth. I wouldn't kill myself because I don't want to be separated from God and I don't want to go to hell. I want to always have a relationship with God. I sat there feeling that no one loved me, feeling that I was all alone. I couldn't call someone. I felt like I be there for everyone else but no one was there for me. I felt like I didn't have a support team to help me out. Then I heard the devil tell me things like you don't have any friends, no one loves you, you might as well just kill yourself. So that night I prayed and cried out to God because I really needed him to move on my behalf. As time went by, I shut my eyes and went to sleep.

The next day I felt a lot better. So I started searching for writing and Graphic Design jobs online. I did a few writing jobs and got paid for one of them. I've made up in my mind, that I let go of all the pain of the past. I forgive all those people who have not came through for me. If you hold on to the past you will pass up your blessings. I also remembered that it is best to pray for people and just leave them in God's hands. I've learned that I can't blame other people for my problems. Instead I have to praise God through the storm and allow him to solve the problems. The Bible says that God is our help in times of trouble. Jesus said let not your heart be troubled. Right now, I repent asking God to forgive me for allowing the devil to come in. I ask God to forgive me for doubting that He has a plan for my life.

A few days later, on a Sunday night. I listened to a video by this man of God on Facebook by the name of Pastor E L Jones Jr called Keys 2 Success. He said something that was very profound to me that stuck with me: When you want to succeed as bad as you want to breathe then you will be successful. I've learned that sometimes if you want to be successful then you have to give up sleep sometimes. If you go to sleep, might miss out on opportunities. I had a wake up call tonight. I realized that I have been sleeping on my dreams too much. It's time for me to move forward, putting forth the effort. Sometimes I am going to have to let go of the pleasures and fun just for the moment. I realized that I can't give up. I can't give up on the dreams that God has put on the inside of me.

I just want to let everyone know to wake up! Keep dreaming big, don't let anyone else stop you. Don't ever give up! If you keep trying, something good has to come out of your hard work. Keep pursuing your dreams even through the roughest times in your life. Trust that God has put greatness in you. Remember that you can do all things through Christ which strengthens you. Put God first, put forth the effort and everything will work out the way it is supposed to. If God can use Abraham and make Abraham a very successful man then God can do it for you as well. Remember that God is no respecter of persons. He has given you the power to get wealth and the wisdom to keep it. He has also given you the wisdom to create witty inventions. The gifts that God has put on the inside of you will make room for you and present you before great successful men and women. God will send anointed people to recognize your gift and help you to prosper. Have some faith and put some action with that faith because faith is dead without works. When the devil comes telling you that you can't make it, remember, that greater is He that's in you than he that's in the world. God is so much bigger than the devil. When the enemy comes in like a flood God will raise a standard against him. So trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. Acknowledge Him in all your ways and He shall direct your path. Trust God and trust in the ability that God has placed within you. This is a wake up call for you. You've been sleeping far too long. It's time for you to get up, make things happen, and remember don't give up!

Obese Bias

Hello everyone, how are you all doing? Good I hope. I want to first start off by saying that my name is Shawne Jackson. It is August 20, 2010 and 11:25 p.m and I have decided to write me a blog. I have not written a blog in a long time actually. I think the last time I written a blog was in 2005 when one of my teachers decided that he wanted us to write one for a grade. I didn't like the fact that we had to do a blog for a grade but now I am so glad that he did decide to have us write a blog. I have decided that I will start writing a blog frequently. I'd like to challenge myself to write one every day but we will see how that goes. With that being said I'll get write to this blog.

Today I had a good day. I spent time with a friend of mine, came in the house, and spent time with the Lord in prayer and then I went to sleep. I guess you guys are thinking, what was exciting about that? It was good because I repented to God of all my sins and told God that I desire for Him to make me Holy and loving. Well, guess what, my first test was today.

For all of you who don't know me, I'm in college getting my Master's Degree in Psychology. There is this one lady in my class who decided to openly say that she is bias against obese people and she has to watch what she says around her children because they could form that opinion as well. When I read those words I began to scratch my head and I could feel the anger coming out of my bosom. So I responded to her "May I ask why you are bias against obese people. " There are two issues I have with her post.

The first issues is the fact that she is bias against people who are obese. There are a lot of people in this world who are overweight for many different reasons. Some people may have been raped, molested, abused in the past. Some people are obese because of medication that they may take. Then you have some who are obese for other reasons. The truth is, it doesn't matter the reason. It's wrong to be bias against someone just because they are obese. I feel like just because a person is obese it doesn't make them any less of a human being. If God is no respecters of persons then why in the world would we be like that. Jesus demonstrated love to the people he interacted with. The woman in my class is not demonstrating love to people who are obese. If you see a person who is obese, and they have an eating problem, what is wrong with offering to help them lose weight? What is wrong with taking an obese person to the gym? What is wrong with suggesting meal plans for the obese person? What is wrong with loving them and praying for them? Why is it that so many people are against people who are over weight or obese? Yes it is true that a lot of people need to lose the weight for health reasons. I know I need to lose me some weight as well. It is dead wrong to have negative opinions against someone just because they are obese. I took what she said personally because I am obese myself. It took Jesus himself to check me. If I wasn't saved I probably would have light into her with some words that are not very nice. Thank you Jesus that I am saved. She is basically being part of the problem and not the solution.

The second issue is so many parents are hypocrites. If you want your children to follow you and do what is right then you need to do what is right. How are you going to expect your children not to have a negative or racist comment about an obese person when you do? That's a flat out hypocrite. The Bible tells us to train the child in the way he should go and when he gets old he will not depart from it. She basically was saying that it is okay for her to have negative opinions of people who are obese but it's not okay for her children to do it. What's up with that? Parents need to stop with this do what I tell you and not do what I do mentality. If you want your children to be good then you need to be good in front of them don't just tell them to be good. If you don't want your children to be bias against other people because they are obese. Then you should check your attitude towards people who are obese and let go of the biases you have against them. You can't be the devil and expect your children to turn out to be an angel. It doesn't work like that. If you are a devil, and your children are watching your devilish ways then your children will turn out to be the devil too. Unless they move out of your house and get exposed to Jesus Christ, repent of their sins and receive Jesus as Lord of their lives.

God has a sense of humor I tell ya. The woman who said that is in my group. I said Lord Jesus, what are you trying to tell me? The Lord ministered to me telling me that I must still walk in love with even my enemies. Because I am a Christian and I love God, I am not going to respond in a negative way. I am going to respond in love as the Lord leads me. Yall, pray for me. I am going to seriously need it. :)